What I could say

Hello everyone, I hope you all are having an amazing day! I am sharing with you all another original poem that I wrote. This poem is about the inside voices that play in your head, deciding whether or not you should say things out loud. It's also about the hard truths that sometimes we need to hear or the crazy realities that we are living in. I hope you all enjoy reading this poem!

What I could say

Leave me alone.

I wish I could say that,

But I don’t want to lose you.

I can't lose something good in my life,

I just want to be alone sometimes and think about myself before others.

I like you.

I actually want to say I love you,

But I can’t.

I’m afraid of rejection and reading the wrong signals.

So, I just stay in the dark and assume you feel the same way.

I miss you.

I want to say I need you,

But I won’t.

I’m afraid of the outcome.

I can’t hope anymore, I have to accept that you’re gone.

Go away.

Why would I say that?

Sometimes I can’t help it,

But I need you in my life.

I just want you to go away for a day.

I don’t hate you.

I just miss our memories together.

I longed for you to change, but I realized you can’t change anyone.

I needed to lose you to make me realize I need to love myself first.

You’re gone, but I am found.

Stop talking to me.

The nonsense you say is enough for me to say that to you,

But I won’t because everybody needs someone to talk to.

I’ll listen to you and won’t judge.

I just wish someone would do that for me.

Give me a break.

I’m going through things too you know,

But I won’t tell you that, you wouldn’t know that because I don’t express it.

So, I just take in what you say to me

And hope I don’t take it personally.

What is wrong with me?

I feel like I can’t do anything right lately.

I say this under my breath to myself hoping that I can fix myself.

It’s exhausting being perfect, but when you make a mistake,

The whole world looks at you as if you have committed a crime.

I’m not going to cry

Because I am not weak,

But sometimes I am strong for too long.

So, I let it out in hopes that no one will hear or see me.

I just wish someone would comfort me and tell me it’s okay to show your weaknesses.

I’ll be okay

Is what I tell myself,

Especially when things go wrong.

It’s a reminder that I need to stay positive and move on with my life,

But sometimes I feel like I’m losing my hope in this world.

I haven’t talked to you in a while,

But you haven’t reached out either.

So, who really is to blame?

Was it a friendship for a season or a lifetime?

If I would have reached out, it would have been for a reason.

Don’t worry about me.

I may not have my life figured out,

But I have hopes for my future.

I have time.

I’m not worried about what other people are doing, I’ll do my own thing.

Thank you all very much for reading this blog post! This poem is quite different from previous poems that I have written before, it is definitely a more honest poem about my current self. I really appreciate all the love and support I receive when writing these poems, it encourages me to write more! Also, I have more posts planned for this month and cannot wait to share them with you all! If you want to stay updated when new posts are coming or want interactive content, you can follow me on both Pinterest and Instagram @helpfulinspiringblog. If you need to contact me, please email me at: helpfulinspiringblog@gmail.com. I will see you all in the next post!

-Sonia