Hello everyone, I hope you all are having a wonderful day! I am sharing with you another original poem that I wrote a while ago. This poem is about trying to forget someone that you used to love. It is also about remembering every moment you were with them and your feelings towards them. I hope you all enjoy reading this poem!
Took Too Long
I’ll never be yours.
I just wasn’t good enough for you.
It’s sad, but it’s true.
We both moved on from each other
And I realized that you're all I had.
I once would be mesmerized by you.
The heaviness in my heart,
The overwhelming tears in my eyes,
The loneliness I felt when you weren’t with me,
Was all a misunderstanding.
The room that was filled with so many people felt empty because you weren’t here.
The excessive talking of people started to sound like murmurs in the room that tried to replace you.
The constant interactions with people that just doesn’t feel the same without you.
The annoying voices that are in my head trying to tell me that I was meant to be with you.
And the overthinking that plays the worst spell on me.
I like to think everyone is replaceable,
But truly I am wrong.
Anyone could take your spot and act like you,
But no could replace the feelings, connection, and passion I felt for you.
I hate to say it, but you were one of a kind.
You are like this abstract painting.
I could stare at you all day trying to figure out what you are and what you are trying to tell me.
It’s confusing, frustrating, annoying, and slightly pleasant.
You were unbearably hard to understand,
But you were perfect to me.
I could watch you for hours like a good tv show that you never wanted to end.
I could listen to you talk for days like a beautiful symphony playing over and over again.
I could smell your dark and spiteful cologne like a soap bar that you never want to wash away.
I could feel your presence on me like a lion watching its’ prey.
I could taste the words that left your mouth like a melted popsicle.
I never wanted my feelings to go this far for you.
I never wanted you to move on.
I never wanted me to miss you.
I never wanted my thoughts to be about you in the first place.
I never wanted myself to get hurt.
But I did, I received so much pain from you
And lost so many days thinking about you.
Moments in my life that I won’t get back.
Moments that I wished I would’ve forgotten about you sooner.
Moving on was hard, but not being able to love anymore, hurt even more.
I don’t think I ever hurt you though.
So, why does it matter?
I cared too much about someone who loves himself more than he ever was there for me.
I was so stupid, naïve, and dumbfounded that I would end up with you.
Maybe I missed my fate, I can’t tell if you were the right guy or the wrong time?
But how I feel doesn’t matter anymore,
We don’t see each other anymore, we don’t talk to each other anymore, we both moved on.
Whatever happened, shouldn’t have happened in the first place.
I don’t want to bring it up anymore.
I lost you before I lost myself.
It’s a good thing though.
I didn’t fall too hard for you.
It’s a blessing. I may not realize it now, but I will later.
I will understand who you were to me and why you changed.
But right now, I’m focusing on healing myself.
I used to love you,
I used to miss you,
I used to care for you.
I used to want to be with you,
But now, I want nothing to do with you.
I don’t even like when people bring up your name.
Or ask me how you are doing.
It bothers me because I’m trying to forget you ever existed.
I’m trying to forget how I felt for you.
It was a rollercoaster that had its highest peaks and fearful drops that made my life so much fun.
But it’s time to forget.
To forget about you and all those so-called memories.
It’s time to open my doors to new people and to welcome myself back into my arms.
It’s time to live my life without you.
It’s time that I can let you go.
You were just an endless migraine that you wanted to go away, but it couldn’t because it wanted to make sure feel some pain.
You meant so much to me.
But you also annoyed the shit out of me.
The way I felt with you was effortless and painful.
I get to finally take care of myself.
I let myself go when I was around you.
I let you take over my entire life and affect me in ways I cannot explain.
I allowed someone to get too close to me and watched myself get burned.
I watched you leave and start your new life while I was still here broken and in pain.
But now, I get to start new. A new journey without you in my life.
No more heartache.
No more hope for you to come back.
No more missing and wanting you.
No more confused thoughts.
Just a new chapter, to a new life.
So, I wish you all the best in life. Whatever that may be.
Goodbye, something we didn’t properly say.
I won’t miss you or the things you did to me, I will only think of you as somebody I used to be friends with.
I’m sure I’ll still see you, I’m sure I won't talk to you, but
I'll never forget how you changed me to be like you.
Thank you all very much for reading this poem post! I really appreciate all your love and support whenever I post a new poem, it defienlty gives me more encouragement to keep writing! I have another posts planned for this month and I cannot wait to share it with you all so, stay tuned for a new post coming soon! If you want to stay updated when posts are coming or want more interactive content, you can follow me on both Instagram and Pinterest @helpfulinspiringblog. If you need to contact me, please email me at: helpfulinspiringblog@gmail.com. I will see you all in the next post!
-Sonia
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